I knew I would get a good workout and I knew I would have a lot of fun but what I did not anticipate is how suddenly and overwhelmingly I would become afraid and anxious half way up the wall. I'm climbing, I'm laughing, I AM SPIDERMAN . . . and then suddenly I am just a piece of gum stuck against the wall. My palms start to sweat, my breath and heart rates double, and the thought starts creeping in . . ."I . . . CAN'T. . . DO . . . THIS . . .” What one sentence can be so evil - "evil like the fru-its of the dev-il?" (brownie points if you can you name the movie reference!) The whole experience got me thinking about fears and anxieties and the roles those emotions have on racing. My swim coach back in the day explained to me the difference between nervousness and anxiety. Nervousness is something you feel when you know you are not prepared for what is coming. Anxiety is the excitement you feel what you know you are ready but you are not prepared for the outcome. As I prepare for my races I suffer though nightmares (such as accidently shaving my legs too early - or taking a 15 minute transition because my goggles don’t match my outfit - situations that should strike fear in the hearts of all sane people) and stomach butterflies so severe I can't eat without gagging. In times like these, I have to stop and analyze my feelings. Am I nervous or am I anxious? And once I answer that question I wonder is it ok to be nervous or anxious in this situation?