Friday, October 14, 2011


I have been thinking a lot about my next blog post and I have had a lot of great experiences in the last month to blog about but I came across this song as I was scrolling through my ipod today at work. Now that my 2011 triathlon season has come to a close I have had a chance to reflect on the experiences I had and all that I learned. I probably learned more about triathlon and myself this season than I have during any other. The outcome is I feel more motivated now than ever.   Maybe it is this mindset that draws me to this song? While there are several interpretations of its meaning (and I will go ahead and admit the video is weird – don’t judge), I find this song to be about inner struggle. The struggle behind countless hours in the pool and on the road, day in and day out, sunrise to sunset . . . . having the confidence and faith in your abilities to put everything you have out on the course on race day . . . seeing all of the open doors in front of you and taking advantage of opportunities as they present themselves . . .  Of course this is probably just another simple love song whose meaning I have completely contorted until there is no doubt in my mind its lyrics can be applied to triathlon-ing.  Alas.
The truth is that I never shook my shadow
Every day it's trying to trick me into doing battle
Calling out 'faker' only get me rattled
Wanna pull me back behind the fence with the cattle

Building your lenses
Digging your trenches
Put me on the front line
Leave me with a dumb mind
With no defenses
But your defense is
If you can't stand to feel the pain then you are senseless

Since this,
I've grown up some
Different kinda figther
And when the darkness come, let it inside you
Your darkness is shining
My darkness is shining
Have faith in myself

I've seen a million numbered doors on the horizon
Now which is the future you choosen before you gone dying
I'll tell you about a secret I've been undermining
Every little lie in this world comes from dividing
Say you're my lover
Say you're my homie
Tilt my chin back, slit my throat
Take a bath in my blood, get to know me
All out of my secrets
All my enemies are turning into my teachers

Light's blinding
No way dividing
What's yours or mine when everything's shining
Your darkness is shining
My darkness is shining
Have faith in ourselves